It was a perfect day. I wandered through my apartment. Enjoying my new furniture, paintings on the wall. Later on that day, I met friends at the beach. We laughed, played, talked, and then some went snorkeling and I chose to horseback ride. First along the shore and then took a trail up into the hills. Along the ride, I turned a corner and there in front of me — was a lake, reflecting the sun. It was a moment….one of my best moments. And as I leaned back, I thought, today is the best day of my life.
And that was my last day in Second Life.
Three Years Ago.
I realized that the BEST day of my life — was completely virtual, on a computer screen, sitting in my computer chair…..and that saddened me immensely.
Yet…….technology still continues to have a strong hold on me.
This past weekend, my church hosted an event called “Children at Risk” event on the topic of “Protecting Your Family Against Gaming Disorders & Online Predators” and I admit, I decided adamantly that I would not attend. I would not go and sit through a session that talked about the bad of internet and gaming.
But after I chose to be a mature grown up, I decided to go — with a semi-open mind — and listen to what was shared. And I did learn a lot — a lot I did not know, some that I did.
And the fact, that I often just smash down to not deal with boiled up to the surface, the fact that I am addicted to the internet & gaming. Yes, I can turn it off, I can walk away — so I justify the time I spend with a “well it is educational use” — but still, I am drawn to the bells and whistles and the excitement that is on the screen.
And this is not new to just the “internet”. When I lived in Hawaii (’93)…on Oahu on the North Shore….the ocean was less than 1/4 mile away — and I spent most weekends playing “Legends of Zelda” — which I proudly will boast that I finished the game. But I also missed out on “Hawaii” because I was gaming.
I tumble in and out of games — FarmVille, CandyCrush, Slingo, Triple Town…..always having a 100 game limit…..but then moving onto another game.
—–So, as I sat through the session about “Protecting Your Family Against Gaming Disorders & Online Predators” — I squirmed a lot because I was confronting my addiction F2F.
At one point of his session, he mentioned a recent study that shared that the average high school student spends 7 hours a day online — and to be honest, I scoffed at that. Not because the number is too high — but because I believe the number is too low.
If I am honest about my online time — it is more like 14 hours of day. Not steady time — but on and off all day long. I rise in the morning, I grab the ipad for my morning rounds of Words With Friends, Twitter catchup, check email, etc. On the way to work, at red lights, I glance over to check twitter, mail. Once to work, I log on — doing my IT job, yet having multiple windows open just to “stay connected”. Once I get home, because our wifi is so bad….I turn off tech until bedtime…and then once again, Words With Friends, check twitter, read through Flipboard, etc.
Technology has a strong hold on me. I admit it.
And if technology has a strong hold on you — or you are just interested to learn more about the addiction aspects of technology — I invite you to watch or listen to the session I attended.
Follow the link here: http://www.calvarymurrieta.com/ministries/justice-matters1.asp
I learned a great deal. Somethings I did not wish to learn….I like my gaming time. But it was good to focus on something that I tend to blur so I don’t have to deal with it.
And now, I am trying to deal with it — by being open and sharing this journey with you….for support, for understanding.
Perhaps the conversation will help you too…..or someone you know.
Just My Thoughts Today.